mental-health
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But what will I be if I never get these things sorted out?Is my potential still wasted,Or is it waiting?Is my potential bottled up on a shelf collecting dust in the back of my cabinet?Did I stuff it into a closet that I’ve lost the keys to?If I never find something to be great at,What…
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Don’t give her a bullhorn,Don’t give her a microphone,Don’t give her two tin cans. Take her hands,Staple them to her tongue,See if she’s useless then. Look in her eyes,Stab them with,Feathered pens. Carve up her mind,With lies like,She lacks intelligence. Tell her to get up on stage,But trip her along the way. Slap her sobbing face,Pour…
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You laid her in your tears,She was your sponge. Soaked up your trespasses, As if it could keep you dry. Bound her hands, So no words came out.Tossed her in your basementOf broken mirrors. Hysterical ladyArmed with the ice pickFrom the lobotomy,She escaped from. Squeeze her out,You’ll see the blood,She wore for him. Then you tell me,What she…
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Ache ShakeForce yourself To be okay. WritheDiveFall into The coast line. LungePlunge Let the Ocean drown you. Swirl TwirlSpin throughThe frigid drain. DriveThrive Climb backUp the mountainside.
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You ever wake up And you’re not you Anymore? I look in the mirror And see the same face, Except today It’s no longer mine. What pushed me to Rage yesterday,Holds the weight of A feather Today. Who took my body?Moreover, Who has my mind? I keep waking up With a brain, That feels brand…
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Crash out flat,a big revelation. Bubbles boiled,Right under the skin. My body reminds me,Of the heat that burnt my blood.Slice open my left hand,Squeeze the blooddrops on the page. Whether I stayOr whether I go. This haunting,Still roams my soul. Stopped pushing her away,The ghost begged to play. With open arms,I invite her to light…
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Growing up with a bullyFor a father,Can twist up a young human’s guts,No two humans respond,The exact same way. Some learn to be anything,To survive the next fight.Their brains learn,To accept any challenge. Chaos swarming his bones,Rattling his growing mind. He learned what he needed Was total control. Building a life, Escaping those early days.…
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Can you trick yourself Into believing Everyone can hear you screaming? While you violently rage Silently in the bathroom mirror Because it’s just you in there. Come undone, they never hear a thing. Only one witness to your violation and pain. Anger doesn’t give you more control. That’s the lie it sells you when you…
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There’s a secret hiding inside her. She wants everyone to know,But then again, she doesn’t. Many parts make up her heart. With their own names,They each want their own stage. The meanest one Rattles against her iron cage,She demands they bow toHer seething rage. But once you’ve met her,She can’t be unknown. Chomping on the…
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Mom, are you watching with disapproval?Dad, are you saying what a victim I play?Are you both still running away from the pain you’ve made? A little girl learning how to do flips,Just to get you to look at her. Breaking her back in pieces,So she could bend the right way for you. There’s no pressure…
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I read somewhere that you should make peace with death every single day. I couldn’t do that when I Believed. Death was this passing thing. Not quite pretend, But not quite real. This gray space where questions couldn’t be answered. That’s where faith came in. Setting aside the finality Of death until one’s last breath.…
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Face flushed,Wrinkles ripple on your face,You’re finally free fromthe lead clawing at your heels. On the open road,With nowhere to go. Run as far as you can,Life is a circle. Rolling through mountains, plateaus, and river eroded Canyons.Have you gone far enough to forget?Sun sets in the semi-arid dust,Not a single problem,Left in a cup. To…
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We look back, And it’s all we got. Tick, tick, ticking by, When will it end? No one can say for sure. When it’s time to take our final rest, unique as the finger print, We carry around. Once a lap,We stop and look back. Memories traded For time spent,In seconds, weeks, and years. It adds up to our whole life. We live the whole…
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Isn’t that what you taught her? With every remark from your greasy lips,That pushed boiling tears To sizzle down her face. Didn’t you teach her to grit her frozen teeth and endure the baron cold? Didn’t you teach her to wear pain like a tiara,As though it makes her something great? Relentlessly fighting against your…
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Sliced to bitsIn meer moments as your fingers invaded me. My soul died once, And dead it stayed. My body: the haunted carcuss dies a thousand deaths. Slowly, Day by day. Ruined RelationshipsJob loss.This body bleeds out endlessly the things You did to me. Refusing to refuse to rise,This body drags me through this life,…
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Cold wind Warm sun The bees will hide,How will I tell them? Everything new going onFor me. Will the bees wonder What’s become of me? Will the bees know If I’ve come under fire? Try as I might,I can’t find the bees. They must be informed,Maybe it’s too late. Maybe all my bees,Have found a…
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Another day trying to turn my brother raping me,Into poetry. Another day trying to make art of my life’s deepest pain. Betrayal is a curse,Granted by someone you once trusted. Brother’s are kind, Brother’s are protective,Brother’s are safe. Mine was not. Who made him that way? A question I can’t leave behind. Hating his little…
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I have this thing I never talk about. I got it when I was young. When the personality train dropped off my traits,my mind was too scattered to keep them straight. In one bucket, they’re all supposed to go. But mine got scattered, Into several small jars. To be strong enough to face a monster…
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Do you remember the first time you felt safe?Do you remember the way it tasted? Swallowing the soft thump Of a heart finally, at rest. Do you remember the first time you were afraid?Did you shake and hyperventilate? Chattering hairs screamDown the back of a petrified spine. Do you think you deserved these things? Were…
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I don’t want to confess My sins today. They say,Thoughts hold power. Thoughts can be sinful. You see the cake and devour more than just your piece behind the secrecy of your own eyelids. A defective doll Prancing around, Town to town,Burning beautiful Places down. In search of more sweetness, That flashes to ash in…
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I’d rather not have any feelings today. So I woke up and washed them down the drain, I got in my car and they came right back.Shooing them out the windows Worked like a charm. Until I was doing the dishes, They bubbled out of my eyes,So I scrubbed them and shoved them into the…
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Safe hands Touch only when wanted. Safe hands Caress gently up, willing and excited legs. Safe hands Hold other hands softly, Never by force. Safe hands Only slide into pants, Directly invited inside. Safe hands Never pull back to strike. Safe hands Don’t squeeze fragile things. Safe Hands Don’t hurt things. Safe hands Don’t take…
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Snuggled in tight, his arm around my neck. His legs wrapped around mine to hold me down. My flailing screams,Bursting out of control. My small body,Shrieking for help. He couldn’t hold my feelings long enough to walk me through them. So he held onto me, until my feelings stopped. There was no escape. His headlock, an ironclad cage. Foaming at my rabid…
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When did I decide I wanted to be alive? The moment I tried to die. Skating along a thread, A cosmic miracle I hold. I replay the memory that will never become too distant, 85 mphLooking down, my foot is led. 91mphI know how to handle a car, 97 mphBeen doing it since the beginning.…
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Her lavender skin melted into the sway of the trees. Seeds scattered,Trickling behind her every Grass imprint. Her soul knows peace. Her happiness brings rays of golden glow, Joy thrums through Giggles and whispers Her fury burns a hole in the ozone. Her purple lava drips down road ways,Melting tires to a gridlock. The lavender…
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There was a timeI dreamed of having a stalker.You know, Someone who really took an interest in me. A man willing to wait outside buildings with a baseball bat to scare off anyone who thought they’d have my hand. How endearing, I used to think. Lurking in the shadowsMemorizing every inch of my existenceWaiting for…
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The madness of chanceThe odds these exact Atoms collideBut here I stand, 5 foot 2 inches high. The foolishness of a body,How ridiculous I prance around on 2 legsInstead of 4. The silliness of thumbs,How’d you end up over there All alone? Thank goodness though, Up or down,I need you, friend. A jaw dropping wonder,How…
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Fingernails clipped with chattering teethRed bumps protrude from a scabbed and blotchy face. Hair frizzed and fraying at the half blond ends. She peers into her reflection, Do homes exist without the sting of humiliation dancing on liquored up lips?She is uncertain. She knows she cannot roam their hallowed halls anymore, The gallows, a couch…
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Inside the hive,Can you hear your mind? When the lights turn off,Do you feel the shadow? When the Buzzing begins,Does it crawl under your skin? When the light clicks on,Do your fears melt away? Outside in the garden,Can you see the siren lights sing? When you look in the sky,Does it seem small up there?…
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When the sunshine comes Be sure your mouth is open. When your mouth is openBe sure to eat it. When you eat ItBe sure you taste it. And when you taste it Be sure to remember it.
Healing Birds Fly Again 