trauma
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You laid her in your tears,She was your sponge. Soaked up your trespasses, As if it could keep you dry. Bound her hands, So no words came out.Tossed her in your basementOf broken mirrors. Hysterical ladyArmed with the ice pickFrom the lobotomy,She escaped from. Squeeze her out,You’ll see the blood,She wore for him. Then you tell me,What she…
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Magnifying glass,in his hand.Smile ear to ear. Ants run from,The fire coming near. When did I become His ant to experiment on?Was it after the shock collarWrapped around his throat By a hand much larger Than our own? Maybe it was before then,When the bruises Covering my legs,Weren’t from the sports I played. I blame him not For these things, A child…
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Ache ShakeForce yourself To be okay. WritheDiveFall into The coast line. LungePlunge Let the Ocean drown you. Swirl TwirlSpin throughThe frigid drain. DriveThrive Climb backUp the mountainside.
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Does the lamb know She was raised In a lion’s den? Do the lions knowThey infected her bones, When they gnawed On her like a passing snack? Was her mother A sheep or A subservientLioness? Do the lions know, She was never a sheep, But a tiger, That took a while, To find her stripes and fangs? Their lamb escapedin the sinking dusk. Uncertain if she…
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“This ones real nice to me!” I’d cry about my next crush.“Because boys only want one thing. Trust me, I’ll help you find the right one.” Daddy kept the boys away from me. Looking back at the Wreckage of my love affair’s resume. It’s a sad and broken scene, Full of brutal insensitivity. But each…
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You ever wake up And you’re not you Anymore? I look in the mirror And see the same face, Except today It’s no longer mine. What pushed me to Rage yesterday,Holds the weight of A feather Today. Who took my body?Moreover, Who has my mind? I keep waking up With a brain, That feels brand…
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Crash out flat,a big revelation. Bubbles boiled,Right under the skin. My body reminds me,Of the heat that burnt my blood.Slice open my left hand,Squeeze the blooddrops on the page. Whether I stayOr whether I go. This haunting,Still roams my soul. Stopped pushing her away,The ghost begged to play. With open arms,I invite her to light…
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Growing up with a bullyFor a father,Can twist up a young human’s guts,No two humans respond,The exact same way. Some learn to be anything,To survive the next fight.Their brains learn,To accept any challenge. Chaos swarming his bones,Rattling his growing mind. He learned what he needed Was total control. Building a life, Escaping those early days.…
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There’s a secret hiding inside her. She wants everyone to know,But then again, she doesn’t. Many parts make up her heart. With their own names,They each want their own stage. The meanest one Rattles against her iron cage,She demands they bow toHer seething rage. But once you’ve met her,She can’t be unknown. Chomping on the…
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She said look back, so I did. She grew up, and learned she’s not a doll. And you still can’t lie to that book. Once the feather has been gripped, What is written is forever a moment of truth. Perhaps not forever, But with that ink,She spoke her truth. She sobs when she writes about…
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Mom, are you watching with disapproval?Dad, are you saying what a victim I play?Are you both still running away from the pain you’ve made? A little girl learning how to do flips,Just to get you to look at her. Breaking her back in pieces,So she could bend the right way for you. There’s no pressure…
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I read somewhere that you should make peace with death every single day. I couldn’t do that when I Believed. Death was this passing thing. Not quite pretend, But not quite real. This gray space where questions couldn’t be answered. That’s where faith came in. Setting aside the finality Of death until one’s last breath.…
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When my fingertips are greenIt means I’ve died.But for a tree, It’s a sign of vibrant life. Rosy cheeks,Blood rushing through me. Red leaves,Watching them die slowly. Veins map my body,Like branches on limbs connected to the trunk. Searching for the secret of life inside the opposite of the air I breathe. I watch it…
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Rustling leavesDance through my ear,Like tiny sandpaper sheets.Stuck contemplating who owns the trees. Their roots intertwined with each other and the soil. When its neighbor is dying of starvation,It doesn’t stand idly by.Sending resources trying to revive the tree nearby. But not so much that it itself shrivels and dies. A balance unknown to my…
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Face flushed,Wrinkles ripple on your face,You’re finally free fromthe lead clawing at your heels. On the open road,With nowhere to go. Run as far as you can,Life is a circle. Rolling through mountains, plateaus, and river eroded Canyons.Have you gone far enough to forget?Sun sets in the semi-arid dust,Not a single problem,Left in a cup. To…
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Isn’t that what you taught her? With every remark from your greasy lips,That pushed boiling tears To sizzle down her face. Didn’t you teach her to grit her frozen teeth and endure the baron cold? Didn’t you teach her to wear pain like a tiara,As though it makes her something great? Relentlessly fighting against your…
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Sliced to bitsIn meer moments as your fingers invaded me. My soul died once, And dead it stayed. My body: the haunted carcuss dies a thousand deaths. Slowly, Day by day. Ruined RelationshipsJob loss.This body bleeds out endlessly the things You did to me. Refusing to refuse to rise,This body drags me through this life,…
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Another day trying to turn my brother raping me,Into poetry. Another day trying to make art of my life’s deepest pain. Betrayal is a curse,Granted by someone you once trusted. Brother’s are kind, Brother’s are protective,Brother’s are safe. Mine was not. Who made him that way? A question I can’t leave behind. Hating his little…
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I have this thing I never talk about. I got it when I was young. When the personality train dropped off my traits,my mind was too scattered to keep them straight. In one bucket, they’re all supposed to go. But mine got scattered, Into several small jars. To be strong enough to face a monster…
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I was too afraid. Stood tight as a pencil,Behind the evergreen tree. Holding its needles, She hides from the notebookScreaming for her honesty. The blue fairy calls to her,Always holding the book, Her sparkling feather,Held gently by her palm. Tell me your secrets, Her siren sounds. She knew better, Than to ever ever look. You…
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Do you remember the first time you felt safe?Do you remember the way it tasted? Swallowing the soft thump Of a heart finally, at rest. Do you remember the first time you were afraid?Did you shake and hyperventilate? Chattering hairs screamDown the back of a petrified spine. Do you think you deserved these things? Were…
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I don’t want to confess My sins today. They say,Thoughts hold power. Thoughts can be sinful. You see the cake and devour more than just your piece behind the secrecy of your own eyelids. A defective doll Prancing around, Town to town,Burning beautiful Places down. In search of more sweetness, That flashes to ash in…
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I’d rather not have any feelings today. So I woke up and washed them down the drain, I got in my car and they came right back.Shooing them out the windows Worked like a charm. Until I was doing the dishes, They bubbled out of my eyes,So I scrubbed them and shoved them into the…
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Misty drops melt into thunderous pelting beads,Leaves threaten to change from green to brown. These first rains of autumn Turn around my summer frown.When the rain drips, my tears feel free to fall in toe, Hidden under gray clouds. The caverns of my soul search For the holiness of my inked drenched page. A treaty…
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Snuggled in tight, his arm around my neck. His legs wrapped around mine to hold me down. My flailing screams,Bursting out of control. My small body,Shrieking for help. He couldn’t hold my feelings long enough to walk me through them. So he held onto me, until my feelings stopped. There was no escape. His headlock, an ironclad cage. Foaming at my rabid…
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When did I decide I wanted to be alive? The moment I tried to die. Skating along a thread, A cosmic miracle I hold. I replay the memory that will never become too distant, 85 mphLooking down, my foot is led. 91mphI know how to handle a car, 97 mphBeen doing it since the beginning.…
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On nights when I toss and turn. There are no cold sides left on my pillow, I imagine I’m a maiden that’s been sent off across the sizzling pink pond. I imagine they sent me here to find a better life. I force my heart to believe mothers sending me letters, I just can’t receive. …
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Her lavender skin melted into the sway of the trees. Seeds scattered,Trickling behind her every Grass imprint. Her soul knows peace. Her happiness brings rays of golden glow, Joy thrums through Giggles and whispers Her fury burns a hole in the ozone. Her purple lava drips down road ways,Melting tires to a gridlock. The lavender…
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There was a timeI dreamed of having a stalker.You know, Someone who really took an interest in me. A man willing to wait outside buildings with a baseball bat to scare off anyone who thought they’d have my hand. How endearing, I used to think. Lurking in the shadowsMemorizing every inch of my existenceWaiting for…
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Fingernails clipped with chattering teethRed bumps protrude from a scabbed and blotchy face. Hair frizzed and fraying at the half blond ends. She peers into her reflection, Do homes exist without the sting of humiliation dancing on liquored up lips?She is uncertain. She knows she cannot roam their hallowed halls anymore, The gallows, a couch…
Healing Birds Fly Again 