Snuggled in tight, his arm around my neck. 
His legs wrapped around mine to hold me down. 
My flailing screams,
Bursting out of control. 
My small body,
Shrieking for help. 
He couldn’t hold my feelings long enough to walk me through them. 
So he held onto me,                                         until my feelings stopped.
There was no escape. 
His headlock, an ironclad cage. 
Foaming at my rabid mouth,
A lion with tiny wings.
A fairy without flight.
I’d fight with all my might.
but still, 
I was in his cage. 

Calm down. 
Stop fighting it.

One option left, 
Submit. 

Give my burning will over to him. 
Accept his arms around my little body, 
Coiling around me like a boa, constricting disobedient prey. 
Collapsing the world on top my tiny chest,
Ignore the aches of my desperate lungs.
My instincts screamed,

RUN!

But I could not. 
I’d been too loud  
I’d been too upset. 
I’d had too many of my own thoughts and not enough of his. 
It was now his right to lock me in a prison between his bicep and wrist.

You will learn to  
Deny the voice inside trying to save you,
You will learn to obey the man, 
Holding you down.